How do I Look at Life Seriously?

Some of my closest friends tells me I am serious with life. Although most of the time I am not aware of this.

Most of the time, I find myself making others laugh. I love making my friends happy when they are with me, those I personally encounter and relate with. They can always share a smile with me because I love to give punchlines to start a laugh.

I know that happiness comes from within. That even though I know I am shaken by the problems surrounding me, even can't imagine how I can get through, but I thank God - how grateful I am to have survived and still doing good. Trials this life brings makes me a better person and gives me the opportunity to be closer to God, that I thank God for the most!

Self pity often happens when we forget to pray. That is why when I am alone, I still try to pray to stop me from crying. I may not know what you are going thru but I think what I am going thru is with a purpose. To cheer those people who I think are sadder than me.

I know someone who keeps asking me how sad I am, I just smiled, she was able to relate that like her I am in trouble, because we both love to laugh and give jokes. We both laugh together so much harder each time we bump with each other.

When trouble comes, the bible said, we only need to trust God and stay faithful. He will deliver us from evil, and nothing can harm the believers, that I strongly believe in.

Memorized Prayers and Psalms 23

Praying is my ultimate weapon against my loneliness and sadness in this lifetime. I always battle depressing situations by talking to God or just reciting some memorized prayers. In my childhood, when it comes to prayers, I often associate it with "flores de mayo" and going to church.

I am not good in memorizing now, but when I was a child, I can repeat a lecture done by a teacher in our grade school including the actions or where my teacher point or walked while saying the things in front of us. That is how good my memory was.

During "flores de mayo", most of the memorized prayers are require for us to recite one by one. We would memorize them in English as well as in our own dialect. Since I got good memory at that time I got an "A". Most memorized prayers came for the bible.

As a child, like most Catholic do, I am not familiar with the bible. But I was able to memorize David's Prayer which is Psalms 23. My lola was the one who taught me. Until now I treasure this "little treasure" my lola gave me. I pray that one day I can also share the bible to my grandchildren just like what my lola did.

By the way, I am still a Catholic now, but as a Christian I make sure to read the bible everyday unlike before.

Psalms 23

1The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want

2He maketh me to lie down in green pastures,

He leadeth me beside the still waters,

3He restoreth my soul. He leadeth me in paths of righteousness for His name’s sake.

4Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

I will fer no evil, for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me.

5Thou prepareth a table before me in the presence of mine enemies.

Thou anointest my head with oil; My cup runneth over.

6Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell

in the house of the Lord forever. Amen

Seder Meal Experience: "A Taste of Heaven"

When I was a child, I have been to several Lord's Day Celebrations. I actually did not cared about it that much. I just looked around the people around me, while I was playing with some other kids with me. I know they have prepared something to eat, that's why I come along with my lola.

My lola (grandmother), is not catholic, but a protestant pastor. She used to bring me to protestant gatherings and celebrations. Including "Lord's Day". I loved accompanying her most of the time, I know I have to eat later. I love eating.

Eating with the Lord, during the celebration of "Lord's Day" was something I learned later. I realize that man does not live with bread alone, as the bible says. I even envy the homes who does this every Saturday night.

When I joined KSD (Kahayag sa Diyos) Community, I appreciated the celebration more and more. We first had it while we were preparing for the baptism. I recalled my childhood, the times when I don't understand it at all. I realized I am not only matured numerically but spiritually at that time.

This year's holy Thursday, was my first Seder Meal experience. Since am still single, together with other 2, we joined the married couples with their families at Balulang to celebrate the SEDER MEAL. We were adopted by the married couples, it means the singles were sparred from bringing something. But each family brought something to eat, including utensils and wine glasses.

Seder Meals are done every holy thursday, similar to Lord's Day, but this time plenty food and drinks are offered. Some kids played, but most of the children present were sitting in the tables with their parents. I admired each family for being there not just to serve but to worship with their family. We get to know each one including the helps some families have. We eat sharing foods and stories.

I was still the child who loves to eat. But this time, I played no more but felt the presence of everyone. I was with the members who were so great in serving God and the community.It was like a taste of heaven. I have seen happy faces and it was like we were in cloud9. Thus, reading today's reflection in Didache, I became so excited to share with you one of my "Taste of Heaven".